don't you hate it when you find out you've been lied to? i've been deceived. deceived by money hungry assholes. today i found out that the job i thought i had, was a scam. i'm not even offended on a personal level. i just think it's really sad people stoop so low. maybe i'm just naive. i feel like deep down i felt this coming. they didn't even write the company name on the papers they handed me today. smiling right to my face and just lying. But it will all be okay. I'm not going to let this get me down. I'm going to have positive thinking.
when negative things like this happen i try to remind myself of all the things i do have to be thankful for. i have a lot of things, things that i probably don't need. i'm grateful for the people in my life who have remained constant. i'm thankful for alan
i'm so excited! my sweetheart αℓαη is planning on visiting me sometime soon. we're hoping for december sometime. it will be wonderful to see him again. i can't wait to snuggle by the fire and drink hot chocolate. just holding each other. cherishing each other. 
i know that everything will turn out exactly how it supposed to. and i'm so excited to keep looking for a job. i know that good things are going to happen to me. and i know that alan and i are in true love. i love him so much. 
that's all i've got for now.
