Damnit...

The more I think about it the more I feel like I'm being bullshitted.

"I'm all in this."

If you were feeling really uneasy and your significant other says, "You have nothing to worry about, I'm all in this" Wouldn't you assume that you had something long lasting? Wouldn't you assume that the person was planning to stick around a while. My ex boyfriend said these very words to me MAYBE a week before he broke up with me. And we only officially dated for 9 days. (but we were hanging out basically every day for three months) I don't know what to make of this. It really hurts me to think that he could say this and somehow his mind changed completely within like one week. 
I can't make sense of it. 

i feel like i'm definitely more emotional that a lot of people. i don't really know why... when i care about someone i feel deeply for them...i'm starting to wonder if I should even care that much anymore...

Be Alright

This is the worst feeling in the world...

I don't want to wait around for you...but a great part of me thinks that this could've been something true

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Across the ocean, across the sea
Startin' to forget the way you look at me now
Over the mountains, across the sky
Need to see your face and need to look in your eyes
Through the storm and, through the clouds
Bumps on the road and upside down now
I know it's hard baby, to sleep at night
Don't you worry

Cause Everything's gonna be alright, 
Be alright, 
Through the sorrow,
And the fights
Don't you worry,
Cause everything's gonna Be Alright
Be Alright,

All alone, in my room
Waiting for your phone call to come soon
And for you, oh, I would walk a thousand miles
To be in your arms
Holding my heart

Oh I, Oh I...
I Love You
And Everything's gonna Be Alright, 
Be Alright

Through the long nights
And the bright lights
Dont you worry
Cause Everything's gonna Be Alright
Be Alright, 

You know that I care for you
I'll always be there for you
Promise I will stay right here, yeah
I know that you want me too
Baby we can make it through, anything
Cause everything's gonna Be Alright,
Be Alright, 
Through the sorrow, and the fights
Dont you worry
Everything's gonna Be Alright, 
Be Alright

Through the sorrow, and the fights
Don't you worry
Everything's gonna Be Alright..

I don't know what to do...my mind is racing 

I'm having a pretty hard time dealing with this. I just keep thinking of all the reasons he could really be breaking up with me. Yes, I was being insecure about his feelings for me, and I told him it was cause I haven't had anyone be as nice to me as he has...maybe that was a mistake. I really hope that he still wants me in his life...and that he isn't just bullshitting me to make it easier. :( i thought he really did care about me...

                       Why couldn't I have just had faith...