This is the only place I can really write how I am feeling right now. Anywhere else and my ex would be able to read it...I'm hurting a lot but I'm really trying to remain positive...I know there's got to be a reason for everything and if now isn't our time together well maybe in a couple more months it will be. All I know is I love spending time with him, being by his side and just talking to him. I really hope he meant everything he said tonight about staying friends and still having fun. I think he's such a great guy and I can't help but think this is all my fault. :(