so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick

we're both such magnaficent liars so crush me baby i'm all ears

taking back sunday


have you ever wanted to float away?


take me here.




let's think about the smallest small. or maybe the biggest big.

so, i'm really glad that it's basically summer. the warm sun makes my body feel really good.
it's not something i get to experience too often but when i do get to feel it, it's so refreshing.



everyone's just in a better mood when the whether is nice too. it's harder to be upset about something when you can just go outside in nature and feel wonderful.
maybe that's just me hahah. i love being outside.

i love looking up at the clouds when it's super warm outside with a nice breeze.


or somewhere like this...

I've been catching up on some reading & it feels really good. I forget how much I actually like reading until I start doing it again. At school I found myself busy or busy doing nothing & I just didn't take the time to read anything. At least not anything of value.

some books i read a long time ago.

every one and everything is connected. we are all one. there is no separation of matter and space.

I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together




round we go around again circles, play this game over again. round we go around again circles...

i was just thinking and i really love run this town by jay-z..

you trippin when you ain't sippin, have a refill

you feelin like you runnin huh now you know how we feel.

i truly love music, tattoos and kissing. (although these aren't the only things)
speaking of tattoos...i have to plan my next out. i know that i want a quote of some kind but it's so hard to pick one quote out of millions and decide that's the one.
i gotta do it sometime soon though.


tattoos are so much fun. they have also proven to be addictive. i really love getting tattoos and i have ever since i got my first one. i don't picture myself covering my body in tattoos however, i do picture get quite a few more before i stop. also, depending on what i decide to do with my life, i could change all of what i'm saying entirely. who knows... so i'll probably keep it classy, (:


mmm. kisses & tattoos.

changes

I've come to realize that a lot of things are not what they seem to be at all. All of reality is an illusion, it's what we decide to make it. And everyone's reality is different, so who knows what is really going on? I don't think we will ever know exactly what another person thinks or feels. No matter how much we try to describe these things it doesn't seem to be adding up.

There's another thing I'd like to address. In a previous blog post I said that I finally knew what love was. I'm not so sure that I know. I know that I believe in love and I know that love is a beautiful thing. However, it seems to cause hurt almost as much if not more than it causes joy. I'm starting to believe that "true" love may not exist. What is true love really? Loving someone your whole life and remaining completely content with that person? That seems boring almost. I'm not saying I don't want to love someone my whole life, I'm just saying that it seems impossible for myself as a person to love solely one person my entire life. That is why I think marriage is bullshit. I mean, "giving" yourself to someone...I'm not about to do that. I'm my own person and I have complete ability to love and care for another person without handing over my life to them. I'll more than gladly share my life with someone but my faith in the whole situation is d w i n d l i n g.



After reading what I've just written I also want to say that I am not trying to sound pessimistic.
I fully believe in love. It happens when we least expect it. (:


Speaking of LOVE, last Friday I got to experience something utterly amazing.





I have loved The Used since middle school and I finally got to see them live and in person. It was so spectacular. I was instantly in a state of bliss. I was dancing and singing at the top my lungs and I honestly couldn't give one shit about what the stationary people around me were thinking. I almost cried I was so happy. I haven't been that happy since I met Craig Owens. I even blew Bert a kiss and I know that he saw me. He was looking directly at me and it was like the whole moment was in slow motion.
After hearing the songs live from Bert's mouth I rediscovered the meaning of his words. As I sang them I remembered earlier times in my life when I had nothing else but the music. It made me feel euphoric.

Hand Music by hand or music by heart Music by hand and music by heart Create, birth, conceive, creativity innate Pushing, pulling, moving, lifting, down Power strength in sound Margareet Valentine

I don't know what I'd do without music.

There's definitely one more thing I need to mention. I know how a lot of people feel about the subject so I'll try to keep it short and sweet.


I absolutely love Justin Bieber. You can say he isn't talented. You can say he's stupid and I wish I had a dollar for every time I heard "he looks like he's twelve" & "he sounds like a girl". I KNOW. However, Justin Bieber is sixteen and I'm sure his voice will be changing soon ha.
I am aware that he doesn't write his own music but for some reason listening to him makes me happy. It makes me smile when I'm sad. I think that's something to appreciate whether the artist is truly talented by the standards of whomever. So, think what you will but Justin Bieber can dance better than I can.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kffacxfA7G4


Have a happy day :)